WOW!

It hasnt been long since i last blogged however soooo much has happened that it feels life its been forever! I will try not to miss anything.
ok so like a week ago not even i have my dad hand my resume into Biomet (which is where he works) not thinking much will happen but wanting to find full time job that pays better than my current job at menards. With low expectations and huge prayers i wait to hear back from Biomet. A few days later i get a call from Biomet saying that they only hire through peoplelink so can i show up Friday at 10 at peoplelink to fill out an application? Also can i be ready to take a drug test and bring proof of identity!? Of course i said YES I CAN!!!! Thank you Lord! So i worked my last day at menards today and i start 1st shift! in the packaging dapartment at Biomet on Monday at 7 am. I laugh now because a few short months ago i would of thought it sooo early to have to wake up at 6 am every day but after months of 4 am for menards this is sleeping in!!!! The benefits are huge for me to switch jobs! Full time work, better pay, closer to home, less or no double trips to town for two jobs so save a lot in gas, once i get hired direct i am elegible for benefits, steady job that i can hopefully work up in, paid holidays, not retail :), no customers to deal with, more comfortable easier dress code that i dont have to buy special clothing for, ........ i think you get the point that i am going to like it here over menards! :) I have God to thank for this job because He definatly did not have to give it to me but He chose to out of His grace and love! Thank you God!!!!!
so in my previous post i told how i got stuck in the ditch when the roads were bone dry. Well i have decided i simply got a step ahead of the blizzard that came a few days later! lol Which i have been doing some thinking about that off road expirience i had and realized some things God showed me through it. One of those things was how much i lack in trusting God to protect me and how fearful i really am!!!!! I have never believed that i struggled with fear! That if i was ever in grave danger it would be nothing because i know that God will keep me safe. Well it funny how fast all of that head knowledge flys out the window the second your put into that real situation! Thats right the second i realized i was completely stuck in the ditch and could do nothing to get myself out that i had absolutly NO control i started freaking out in my head!!! it was the most rediculous i have ever felt in my life! I felt so hepless, alone, and afraid. i was convinced that some creeper was going to find me and smash my car and kidnap me!( this is a little embarrassing to admit but its what i first thought of!) When i was most afraid i trusted God the least! What a terrrible feeling. To have the head knowledge but not be able to have you heart follow what you tell it to! Suddenly i could barelly quote my favorite verse since childhood which is Isaiah 41:10. "So do not fear for i am with you, do not be afraid for i am your God, i will help you, i will strengthen you, i will uphold you with my righteous right hand." However no one kidnapped me and after what seemed like an hour lol help arrived and i really dont think help had ever looked so good in all my life! lol Yes, God showed me that i failed to completely trust him in even the smallest of troubles! How sad! Lord i pray that you would enable me to trust you completely in all things in life, not just the easy stuff that doesn't take much faith! increase my faith Lord! Thank you!
Well i think i hit the major major stuff and i will just have to write again soon if i remember anything i forget. :) God is doing great things in my life! Thank you for your continued prayers! they are blessing! :) Miss you all!